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Delusory… twisting on the side of Illusion
Illusory… churning, upturning Delusion
and aways the same Excuse:
undeserving
unwanted and un-wantable
by Desire itself
The definition of Madness
through relentless repetition in the womb of Denial
is born
as the definition
of Learning
Those growing pains
those fearful teachers
leeching and feasting on your unknowable parts
unthinkable
how they curl and curdle inside you
with broken glass in their little stomachs
Until understanding finally comes
through the cut, unleashed
flesh of memory
and the reasons why
why - ever - for??
You
F
a
l
l
Driven down to hollow ground
with truths cursed and stuck
in
the back of your throat
unheard of
and drowned in distortions…
grotesque reflections of themselves
too unprepared for understanding
still
Half in half out
always a stranger here
and everywhere, in
every Time
- that’s Mine
unlike Tomorrow… - that, is not.
Split down the middle
[ do you know what it’s like? ]
and again down the middle of the two split halves
and again in perpetual… Division.
Ruthless with lightning
[ do you know how it is ]
understanding deep pain from the belly of Life-Death
in a continuum
viciously giving birth to itself
within you
feeling all of it and coming apart with it
tearing and breaking
in collapsing unfolding
For who can hold… so many inside?
Bulging and gaping seams
strain
to hold skin-pieces together
with a myriad creatures clawing their way out
and gnawing
the damnable skin-scroll of Sin
and Story
telling of secret pains and
secret pleasures under their breath
and between clenched teeth
colouring dreams with yearning and loss
yearning and loss
doubt and remorse
Discard these things
and break these Cycles’ shackles
They bring none other than
more of their own
Un-want the Wanting
Un-want the Wanted
In the Empty room, the waiting room
the torture-room you used
to live in
And s
i
n
k
. . .
No More.
The Lesson of the Void is Freedom.
B r e a t h e i t.